Without Suffering there'd be no Compassion (NO LONGER IN USE): Chayse Zachary-Ryker

Here is the story of my beautiful baby boy.

Devon and I had been talking about wanting a baby for about a month before he was conceived. We both quite doing drugs and drinking. We started eating healthy and some what exercising. I had the date set for my surgery to get my birth control out June 12th. June 8th to make my mother happy I got the Paraguard put in. So I got my surgery and got my Implanon taken out. On June 19th I went in and got my Paraguard taken out which actually ended up making my cervix swell in the first place. So we went home and we tried for three weeks straight. Then I got really suspicious and thought Devon was cheating on me. Long story short July 18th we broke up. July 19th though my sister Leesa and I went to see our dad in jail. But on the way back into town I had this extremely weird feeling that just wasn't right. So we headed to Planned Parenthood. 20 minutes later the lady came out with a huge smile on her face and practically screamed I was pregnant to the whole lobby.So I got in the car and called Devon and told him. He apologized to me about the fight and we agreed to try and do as best we can for our little bundle of joy. My sister though was a little hesitant about the test and wanted me to take another one so we went to Walmart and took another one.

I was so thrilled to be pregnant and so excited to watch my belly grow! I was hoping so badly for a girl and Devon wanted a boy.

But then the scariest thing that has probably ever happen to me happen. August 17, 2012 I saw my life flash before my eyes.

My friend and I went and took his new car out for a spin. But he decided to be recluse about it and drive 60+ mph down an extremely curvy rode. He ended up over correcting and hitting the curb which then caused us to do a 180 in the air and go down the side of the hill about 45 to 50ft into a large group of boulders. The car was entirely totaled and I couldn't move. The driver of the car pulled me out and set me on one of the rocks next to the car. Within 10 minutes two paramedics were talking to me. They took me to the hospital and I got ahold of Devon who was at work. Because I was so badly hurt they had to send me to Phoenix to be properly taken care of while pregnant. But I my two lower vertebrate's were fractured, I had three fractures in my sternum, my upper right back rib was badly broken and I had sever nerve damage from my right elbow to the top of my neck.I also had a second degree burn down my chest from the seat belt and on both hips as well. After 4 days in the hospital I was finally sent home but because of all the medication and xrays I was deemed a high risk pregnancy. I was put in a body brace for 6 weeks to help heal my back...but I only ended up wearing it for 2 weeks.

So until 20 weeks I had to go in every 2 weeks to check his measurements and had to go to Phoenix once a month to be checked by a specialist as well.But to make matters even worse is that at the end of August Devon and I broke up again. We were still living together for the two months that we broke up. Until I found out that he was not only trying to get with another girl he was also talking to one other girl. So I moved out. But a week later on Halloween he realized that he loved me and didnt want to be without me so we got back together and I moved back in.

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18 Weeks, IT'S A Boy!

19 Weeks

20 Weeks

So by the next half of my pregnancy wasn't any easier as the first half. We had Thanksgiving which went well and soon came Christmas. Christmas was busy busy busy we spent it with all of our family both days but on Christmas day Devon proposed to me. Sadly though I don't have some cute drawn out story about how he did it. He just took me down the hall and asked me if I wanted to marry him. And I said yes of course! We planned our wedding for New Years Eve. It was pretty wonderful we wed in our living room and it was small and just family. But finding a dress that didnt make me look like a Whale was HARD! But I finally found the perfect dress and I LOVED IT!

The next big event was my birthday I turned 19 and it wasn't all to special, I was huge, on bed rest and extremely uncomfortable. So I stayed home and planned my baby shower that was two days later. We had a wonderful baby shower! But we expected alot more people to show up who didn't :/ I ended up going into preterm labor though that night. Devon and his best friend Brice took me to the hospital but they gave me a shot and sent me home two hours later. I was not at all allowed to do anything....but of course that wasn't going to happen we had to be out of our house by the 2nd and no one else was going to pack up the house but I told Chayse over and over again that he was not allowed to be born until AFTER we moved out of our house and into our new one.

And that is exactly what he did :)