Priorities

As a parent your first priority should always be your child right? That's what you would think, but as I've seen so many parents easily walk away from their children it breaks my heart. I could never imagine leaving Chayse with a family member for an extended period of time. Hell I have a hard time leaving him for a few hours for school or with his dad so I can run errands.But none the less parents have a duty that their child should always come first.

"I love you for all that you are, all that you have been, and all you're yet to be"

Last night I experienced something that really hurt my heart not just for myself as a mom but for my son as well. Chayse is teething really badly and yesterday he got extremely sick he was throwing up for many hours and pale, had a slight fever and wasn't eating. So while I was getting thrown up on and dealing with my screaming child Devon hadn't bothered to text me or call me to see how Chayse was doing. This morning when he came over to watch him I asked him why he hadn't even bothered to see how his son was. He said that if I needed to get a hold of him to message him on facebook...but he's blocked on facebook and I wasn't worrying about facebook as much as my son being sick to go through all that trouble. And I asked him what he was even doing all night while his girlfriend was working and you know what his answer was.....He was babysitting his girlfriend's son. Instead of helping me with his own very sick son he decided to babysit someone else's son. How does that even compare?


When you not only choose people or a significant other over your own child but choose SOMEONE else's child over your own that is about as low as you can get. One of my biggest pet peeves since having my son is when a parent boasts and talks all about how amazing it is to be a parent and how awesome their child is and all these other things but yet you RARELY see them with their child. How can you be such a great parent but are never with them?

"To be in your children's memories tomorrow, you have to be in their life today"

Chapter 19 1/2

When I start a new year I always think of it as a new Chapter to the book of my life. But this year of

course started much differently then it will end. I started this year newly married and I will more then likely end this year divorced. I never in my wildest dreams thought that I would be a mother, married and divorced all before I turn 20.... But apparently someone had a different plan for me. 

I want to start out though that this blog is for any teen mom, or even any mom for that matter to realize that you are not alone and that life is full of downs, outs and all a rounds but there will always be an up, in and standing still moment to counter act them. 

"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end." -Unknown

I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder, I also have long term Depression and Anxiety. So while battling all of those medication free I am also going through my divorce, being a single mom, being a college student, trying to find a job, find a car and maybe even have a social life with very minimal help from my family or from Devon.